If I had the opportunity to not fail I would become God.

A god in the literal sense. An entity with the knowhow; having the answers to anything and everything. A primordial being intertwined with the fabric of the universe. Although the most probable reaction after hearing this would most likely be, “you’re a narcissist!” or “do you want power or something?”. I do not want to be or have these things. I want to prove that god also functions on a hedonic treadmill. That even God himself, assuming that God is a hyper intelligent being with unsurmountable power and has everything it can possibly want, can feel the shackles of having all the answers. People say you should empathize by imagining yourself being in their shoes. What about god? We all lookup to God for answers so why not become him?

The opportunity of a lifetime amends itself. Me not having a sliver of a chance of failure I somehow find a way to become God. I have everything and anything. All the answers, the truths of the universe at my fingertips. For a while I am fulfilled, happy with what I have become, implementing whatever newfound knowledge and power I have gained from the fundamental truths for fulfillment; After some time I start to feel a daunting sensation as I have felt it too many times before. “Now what?”. A simple, short sentence pops into my head involuntarily, as if the newfound toys I have received are losing its functionality and appeal. Aren’t the truths supposed to help me stay fulfilled for a lifetime? This paradoxical situation baffles me so I experiment. I simulate billions of worlds with my newfound power trying to see if intelligent life with the answers already preprogrammed into them can use the answers to find fulfillment. Fifty percent of the simulations were happy for a short period of time (a couple millenia) with a sharp drop off in fulfillment levels after technological advances started to take off. The other 50% of intelligent life realized fulfillment was a joke and plugged themselves into various versions of devices resembling a dopamine machine. Locking themselves into a lifetime of pleasure with no goal, sense of foresight nor ambition. The human kind had spent thousands and thousands of years trying to find the answers to fulfillment and has all that toil gone to waste? What is the use of finding purpose, an identity, self worth, or anything else when once you find what you’re looking for your mind just wants something else in a fraction of the time it took you to find that answer itself?

People say that the journey is more important than the destination, and I personally believe that to be the case. People gain fulfillment not from knowing the answers but the process of finding them. I still have a doubt whether this case would hold when pertaining to finding truths about fulfillment that religions and philosophers have been trying to find for milenia. Maybe this is different. Maybe finding the answer to fulfillment and meaning won’t result in a hedonic treadmill tapestrating itself onto the people. Even though I believe it to be false, I do not necessarily know for sure if my hypothesis is true to the stone. It would be nice to have the opportunity of knowing that I would not fail in my pursuits.

Being in the moment trying to find fun and meaning by taking various journeys across various horizons is in my belief the greatest way to gain fulfillment. Taking the chance to become god will help me showcase that even the most well off of the well off will experience sadness even while knowing everything and having everything. God here represents everything. However, what is the use if he does not use these traits to create his own journeys himself? It is great how Greeks portray their gods as beings with huge ego’s causing dismay trying to find things to do as a side hustle because they don’t find happiness in what they have anymore because of the lack of journey they go through.

If I were given the opportunity to not fail I would choose to become god. I want to test my hypothesis that finding great journeys to embark on is the best way to find meaning and gain fulfillment and often when you prove your case against the most extreme edge cases you tend to seal your case.